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Ego Swatting

“Goodbye Skeeter!  No time for that!” – Morgan Vice

One of my favorite spots in the world is my own backyard.  Nothing fancy there.  It’s just a peaceful little space to breathe and unplug.  Recently, while enjoying some summer solitude, Morgan swatted a mosquito, and let it know just how she felt about it disturbing her peace.

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EGO can be a real peace stealer.  Being Morgan’s mom, fulltime buddy and caregiver, is a labor of the heart that requires me to be vigilant to guard my thoughts.  If not, I can get the “Poor, Pitiful, Me’s”.  I can get all caught up in worrying about myself, and the things I think I might be missing out on, becoming jealous and envious of how easy someone else’s life appears to be.  I can become narrow minded and judgmental of others.  If I’m not careful, I can get so self centered, and hard hearted, that I can’t hear God’s voice above all my noise.

Morgan is counting on me.  Don’t tell her, but I’m only human.  I’m so thankful God is God, and I’m not.  I can tell when my ego needs swatting.  I know it’s time to take that noise to the backyard, and put it in its place.  Goodbye Ego!  No time for that! 😉

There’s nothing more peaceful than placing my heart back into God’s very capable hands.  According to Jeremiah 29:11, He has plans specifically designed for me, for Morgan, for each one of us; “Plans to prosper me, and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future.”

My Child Love God

Until Next Time,

Know The Hope!

Tammy Vice

 

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“Watering Hope”

“It’s important to think about what you’re thinking about.” – Me, talking to myself

Morgan is a great event planner.  She is always thinking about what activity she can put on her calendar, and mine.  😉  We had “March Number 27” listed as planting “Big Color Flowers”.  When that seemed too far off, we changed it to “Saturday Number 14”.  On that rainy morning, after our “Saturday Breakfast” (also on the calendar), we headed to Lowe’s to pick out some flowers and “Garden Dirt”.  That afternoon, between the dropped, we planted our “Color Flowers”.

Garden 1   Garden 4

I explained that “Big” would come with water and time.  So Morgan got out her watering can later to catch what the rain may have missed.  Always thinking, always planning,… 😉

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While having lunch recently with a good friend, they made a thoughtful observation.  They said, with everything going on in my life, it must take a lot for me to keep my emotions under control.  It DOES.  As I thought about this conversation later, I was reminded of Morgan’s garden.  I’ve learned over the years, it takes a daily watering of hope to keep things in perspective for me.  When I feel the weeds of worry popping up, I have to think about what I’m thinking about, and redirect my thoughts to The Hope I know and believe.  I have a little talk with the Master Gardener every morning.  He reminds me of past seasons and events in my life that are proof of what I believe.

A little rain, a little sunshine, and Springtime will come around again.

Until Next Time,

Know The Hope!

Tammy and Morgan Vice

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Waiting With Joy

“Let’s think of something to do while we’re waiting.” – Fred Rogers

Morgan is all about putting events on her calendar.  Her enthusiasm is contagious as she talks about every detail she’s looking forward to.  However, there can be a fine line between expectation and obsession.  Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) is my daughter’s ever present companion.  I have seen it steal her joy on many occasions.  Sometimes it will have her so focused on a future event that she’s unable to see the fun that’s right in front of her.

Any of us can get so caught up in tomorrow’s possibilities that we miss the sweet simple pleasures of the here and now.  In my ongoing quest to help Morgan learn how to wait with joy, I’ve been given an unexpected gift.  Whether it’s learning to draw our favorite characters, watering a flower to help it grow, testing out a new recipe, or watching a fire burn under the stars, I’ve found there are countless wonderful things to enjoy “while we’re waiting”.  Once again, I am thankful for Mr. Rogers and his words of wisdom. 😉

Drawing Fun with Morgan Drawing Fun With Morgan

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