“Hope for the best. Expect the worst. Life is a play. We’re unrehearsed.” – Mel Brooks
While looking through old jewelry to find Morgan some hat pins, I came across this. It’s my old Girl Scouts pin.
“Always Be Prepared”. I took that motto seriously. To this day, I am forever over planning, over thinking, and running over everything that threatens to get in the way of my plans. But no matter how I attempt to cover all the bases, life with autism continues to throw me curves. As much as I’d love to see Morgan’s ducks line up my way, she has a production of her own in mind. In God’s sovereignty and sense of humor, I believe He has enlisted Morgan’s assistance to keep me on my heels, and my knees. 😉 I am slowly beginning to realize He does His best work when I’m off balance, and unable to be “too much” help.
So how do I do this? How do I find His balance for me, that red line, of where my responsibility ends, and trusting begins? Life is a LIVE performance. We don’t get an encore, so I desperately want to get it right. As the parent of a forever child, the struggle is REAL. My older daughter, Allison, texted me this photo yesterday of some wall art she purchased for her living room. God’s timing, a good reminder of where to begin again.
Contrary to my nature, I am making a conscious effort to once again be still. I will halt my mind’s endless rehearsal of all of life’s possible outcomes. Instead, I will sit quietly, earnestly turning my focus back to The Director, on Whom my hope relies.
PS – I had to smile when I saw this other tiny treasure. It’s a skating pin I received for winning a race at Hall’s Skating Rink, more than half a century ago. Even then, slowing down was not my specialty. 😉 Always learning.
Until Next Time,
Be Still and Know The Hope!